Chapter 37: Body image

I was listening to Nikhil kamath podcast and Ghazal talked about body image issues and her life around it. 

Now this picture below reminds me of something which was unpleasant for me. 

I knew people more Skinnier than me or I felt I was alright but deep within I think I didn't felt confident with my body. 

Now I can praise myself for one thing and that is I was quite messy in timetable and so busy with life body image issues only came when there was something to be compared with. I believe confidence comes with knowledge and I had full of it, at that time and I mean I know a person can never know fully.

This is something simran di taught me. I don't know how this picture descript me but lately as I am trying to improve my health and fitness, so I can see how much improvement is there. I should be weighing only around 65 at that time and that too was too perfect and maybe science told me if my BMI Is right I am fine. 

Now what does body shaming do, it's creates a distance between us and our own body and if you can fight that fight and finally face them, it brings supernatural results and you feel incredibe. 

Or this void between your body and you could become discomfort later and may work against you in future, so for that you need to have a believe system. 

I have seen my colour, my body structure and lastly I know my personality, 

And I don't like the first glance of my own, but it grows naturally later. When growing up you see everyone being wheatish and you are more on healthier side it does feel unfair, but that's all life is about. I had put myself at the back because I felt I am not good enough for a position due to some constants of my life and I regret that. 

I hope you don't do that .

I know I haven't spoken a lot and this is all I have 

Peace

Brianil 

Almost skinny but I can see some freshness.